I set fire to the rain

Not only does the damn song keep playing in my head, it also had a major significance in the status of my life at the moment (the more I sang it and learned the lyrics the more I seemed to believe it reflects on a lot going on at the moment……..or its just my paranoia kicking in) Done with Wales…sad but true…I thought it would be more painful leaving but it was not actually, not sad at all. I don’t think student life is it for me and thank heavens this was just a one year program, I am not sure how much more of it I could actually tolerate. I’ve come to realize that despite going back to school was hard, going back to work is even tougher. Not just for myself, but mainly for those surrounding me. Adele sings “'Cause there's a side to you that I never knew, never knew. All the things you'd say, they were never true, never true. And the games you'd play, you would always win always win” and she couldn’t have been more right. Too many people I now have to fight against, out of nowhere, on my first day back it certainly hit me like a ton of bricks. Until now, things aren’t steady and as much as I know it will take a while, I am not very patient and I have several plan Bs in mind. Problem is, we Aries aren’t very fond of plan Bs at all. Contemplating what to do next is tough, taking advice from successful friends around me certainly does its deed in giving me that boost that I need, but envy is one thing I never really understood here. Why not just wish the best for people? Why must we hate? Why must be always want to compete unfairly and put people down? One of my wise friends said to me “we need people like that in our lives, its what keeps up going. Life would be boring without haters”. I suppose he is right to a certain extent…. To all my haters, this is dedicated to you, keep up the hating and I shall “let it burn”.

Unexpected twists and turns

If you were driving a car and weren’t sure exactly where you were going, kinda like maneuvering you’re way around the different streets until you get to where you think you should be (No, I am not referring to the sad accident I was involved in two weeks ago), you come face to face with a T-Junction.

Right- Everything you would need, a HUGE career boosting potential, a clean cut masterpiece on what an ideal future of yours should look like.
Left- A beautiful and delicious cake that just needs YOU on top to complete it.

So where to go? That is the question. Facebook! Duuuh!!

Updated my status with “T-Junction” and no further details. At first, no comments, since I usually say more in my statuses. A few hours later, an old friend commented with “Turn right. You won’t be wrong.” If only she knew how powerful her comment was to me and on which direction I would be turning.

You see, here’s the thing, at times we can be drastically fooled and at other times we can fool people just as bad. All really goes down on what your goal is and how serious are you in getting there. Sometimes, we want something so much, we get blinded and our vision to that path becomes blurred by stupidity and fakeness and lies. It takes a really strong person though to stand up and say “I’ve had enough, I can’t do this anymore”. Even though that could result in one enduring the utmost humiliation, disgrace and emotional turmoil, it is much better than seeing a deep dark hole and walking straight in it.

The past two weeks certainly brought out some REALLY REALLY REALLY unexpected chain of events. As much as I am dying to type every detail of everything that occurred, I would rather keep some curiosity lingering around and watch what suspense does to those who are itching to figure it all out. Sorry haters.

I say unexpected, because some were absolutely amazing and put more than just a smile on my face, but in my heart too. Others, caused so much pain that almost shadowed that happiness I felt at times.

One silly rabbit was my miracle of joy and my little ray of laughter, craziness and believe it or not morality. Thank you for the oh so wonderful days and nights and the magical farewell that I only saw in movies and wanted so much to happen for me. Maybe when you actually learn to fly a kite, we can try it again lol.

Yes, to you my silly rabbit, I dedicate this entry. Stay the powerful figure you are, you’ve certainly earned a place in my heart. Yup, it’s a situation.

New Year, New Taste

Yes yes I know it’s been a ridiculously long time since I blogged, so much has gone on and its just been a heavy roller coaster on my end.

Happy new year to all, started 2012 with a blast, shared it back home with my loved ones and enjoyed every bit of it. Couldn’t help to think how last year’s NYE was and where my life was at during that time. No regrets though, it was a phase that I learned from, I had a lot of fun and I was extremely happy. This time round, I tried to be less selfish and found that it came back to my favor and again I find myself in a very good, calm and happy place.
What does it take for someone to be happy though? What ingredients must one mix to make that super tasty result that makes unconsciously close your eyes and smile with pleasure while tasting it?

I’ve thought a lot about it and tried mixing different ingredients myself, but I don’t know if I have reached that stage yet. Being the stubborn person I am, I would have probably brushed it away and tried to ignore it.

This year, I hope to take a different turn, giving IT a chance. IT being true happiness, IT being that super tasty result that makes me happy from inside.

As I write this, I can’t help but think of my baby cousin/best friend/sister who’s about to tie the knot with her fiancé in two weeks time. Is she feeling that super tasty result? She may, she may not, only she knows and all I can do is watch from a far and pray and hope that it is as sweet as I can only imagine it to be.

So, as I end my first blog entry of 2012, there is no better person to dedicate it to other than our lovely bride to be, mamacita. Wishing you all the love and happiness in the world, and especially that super tasty feeling.